Even in trying times (that is obviously an understatement), I am amazed by how much of an inspiration wife has been.
I do not know the couple personally, I just heard about them because their younger siblings were my batch mates in school. Also, my cousin is a good friend of the husband. I first heard about them when my friend posted a link on her wall. It was the link to the YouTube video of her brother's proposal to his beloved girlfriend. As I am a fan of love and all the romantic frills, I of course had to watch the video. I also stumbled upon the (back then) bride-to-be's blog page, where she wrote about the proposal in detail. I later heard again about them when my friend and my cousin posted on their Facebook walls about needing donors. Sadly, the husband was diagnosed with Cancer (Lukemia), about two years into their marriage. I said a silent prayer for him and his family at that moment. From then on, every now and then I would stumble upon links to the wife's blog entries. She has been blogging about their battle against the "Big C" (as she calls it). Very inspiring.
Monday, I was having breakfast at McDonald's with my cousin. As we were eating pancakes, my boyfriend text messaged me that our friend's brother has passed away. Sad. I talked to my cousin about how, just a week ago, I chatted with the said friend over wedding preparations and stuff (as she is engaged to be married next year, and so is my good friend whom I might plan the wedding for). I checked Facebook only to see that the news was true. (Amazing how Facebook and the Internet in general gets you easily updated.)
I ranted on to my cousin about how weird it is we are normally eating breakfast (pancakes which I have been craving for, since about two weeks ago) and how at the same time a whole family and a wife is devastated with the loss of a loved one. How the world maybe all crumbling down on you and where everything hurts at the moment, but aside from you feeling all of that, the rest of the world lives on normally.
So I once again visited the blog site of the wife. I thought "at least she got left behind with a kid", because I saw how she was very pregnant during our graduation ceremonies. Her sister was graduating with me and since our last names started with the same letter, I was to march right after her sister, with her and her mother. I later found out she lost her child. Just a few days after graduation she gave birth to a 7-month premature baby who only lived for 18 days. My heart sank lower. On top of this she has a father who was bedridden (her sister mentioned it during graduation, in passing) and her mother-in-law was diagnosed with breast cancer. I cried upon reading a few of her posts and watching a few of the videos of her and her (now) late husband. I was so moved that I messaged her and told her even if we didn't know each other, that I was praying for her. My heart was heavy in ache that I ranted on to about 7 people about how all of this pain is felt by one person. But I am amazed, by how inspiring she is as she blogs. How she writes about her human weaknesses but never failing to acknowledge that Lord's greatness amidst all the pain.
I would very much want to share the link to her blog but I am afraid she might not approve of it (although I doubt that). She doesn't even know I am blogging about how I am snooping in her life through her blog. But I have just been so deeply moved and blessed, I just had to.
I am sorry if this is somehow invasion of privacy but I was playing it safe by not mentioning names, even if the pronouns make everything all confusing.
I am still praying for you.
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