Bad Day, Good Day

Last night wasn't too good for me so I woke up not feeling it for work. I stretched my time to the latest I could. I was running late as it is and then my car doesn't start! I called dad and he came down from the house to check it out, he went back up to get me change for the bus!

It was my first time riding the bus alone; first time riding it to work too. I text messaged my supervisor about the predicament I was in, and as expected, she was very understanding about it. Riding the bus to work was a fun enough thing doing alone. The bus driver was nice too. 

I got to work and boss just got back from Cali and brought us donuts to work. Everyone at work was very considerate about the car trouble I was having. 

Breakfast at work and time went by quickly. Lunch was late, I took it at 3:32pm. It was a pretty easy day. Thank you Jesus. Just when I thought it was a bad day, the day proved me wrong. 

Sister picked me up and we went to pick up dad as well. We came home to a yummy home cooked meal by our beloved mother. 

I also already excused myself from working late at my other job and told my boss I just might be too tired to perform the job well. Her reply was good, thanking me for my honesty. Also, my other boss called me over dinner, said she would be bringing me food tomorrow. :) 

Now it's just me, music, and my current read: Walking Disaster by Jamie McGuire. I sooo loved the first book, Beautiful Disaster, that I immediately grabbed the second book after finishing the first one. Good thing the book hold came in just in time. :) 

Well, off to reading again before I sleep. 

Good night.

Allie.

I am tired of hearing the same and old played conversation over and over again. For years I have been drowning it out but now it is harder. I am not only fighting the loud banters but the loneliness and dettachment that comes with moving to a different country. 

How can you be so selfish as to keep on going about how you feel and what you want? Notice those who are silent as they can be likened to a quite volcano, heating up and at any moment might just erupt. I am very, very close to my boiling point. I just needed to spill it out a bit over here.

I am tired of the same old shit you guys do. If you are tired of something or not happy about something then do your very best to change it and make it better! Focus on the good things and appreciate each other instead of magnifying the bad and repeating the wrong that was done! I am crazy tired of this shit so much so that it has me cussing when I normally do not go on typing or saying out loud profanities. Life here is hard enough, I do not need your fucking attitudes weighing me down even more. I feel like Iam drowning already as it is, and you go on about how things are like this and like that, well you were the ones who decided to move here right?! Even if you say it is for our future, well suck it up and face it like the grown ups you are supposed to be! I am such in a fucking dipshit mood I cannot even!!!

Shit. Fuck. 

Contentment, Where Are You?

Before, I always thought being content isn't as good as people make it sound like. Contented people stay where they are, they lack ambition, they are stuck and do not make something better out of their lives (generally speaking). 

When I landed my first job in Seattle, at Taco Bell, I refused to be contented. I cannot do Taco Bell my whole life. It was frustrating to think I went to school for so long and only to land a job at Taco Bell. Maybe it hit my ego or whatever (I definitely am sure it hit my pride) but I really wanted out of there. I went home and looked for a job and found one. I stayed longer than intended. Soon enough I left to fly back here at Washington again. The job I landed there did not do me good either. Yes, I was not contented.

I got back here and landed a job at a testing center. Working there, makes me feel like "please, kill me now". I cannot wait to quit, but I can't just yet because they are already short of people as it is. I am totally unhappy there that I only gave them my Saturdays and my Fridays I took and gave to Taco Bell, the job I left about a year ago because I refused to be stuck there. This time is different though. I work there not because I have to, thankfully I have a full time concierge job that I do not hate to answer my financial needs. Working back at Taco Bell is more for a past time now, and social life I guess? I did gain friends during my time there. 

Second Friday back at Taco Bell was stressful because of the inspection and the presence of the big boss, but other than that, time flew and before I knew it I am home relaxing. I dread the long and slow day at the testing center tomorrow. Sure they pay more, but I am blessed that now I do not have the need for it anymore. 

I have strayed quite far from the topic at hand: contentment. Lol. I tend to do that a lot, get sidetracked. Anyhow, I think it is sad that I do not find contentment in any of the three jobs I have now. I am thankful though that I do not hate my full time job and I can quit the job I hate at anytime. But this being not content also tells me that I am ambitious, I know I can do more. I guess that is a good thing? I just pray the Lord will grant my perseverance and strength to follow through my being ambitious. 

Tired Feet, Aching Back, and Sleepy Eyes, 

Allie

Homesick

Sometimes it is hard to keep my sanity in a place so far away and so different from home.  I try to cope and adjust, but sometimes I fall back and crumble.  Tears flow, chest burns, and I know in myself, that I am not home. 

I am thankful I am with family, they pull me back to sanity when I feel like I am losing it.  What I would not give to be home, making a life there and just being. 

2013

Well it's the start of another year and I'm slacking off my blogging while I am here in the US. *excuses*

Downloaded this for free, although the reviews weren't very encouraging. I'm still hoping it will work for me because otherwise I might result to actually purchasing this other app. And I hate spending. I would probably do so more loosely if I am earning dollars for myself.

Well, I am hoping I can keep up the blogging for this year. I will start with back posting blog entries when I get back to Cebu. Right now, my mind is yet again entertaining the idea of going back to Tumblr just because it has a well-supported app compared to blogger and Wordpress. (Or so I feel.) I hate how I keep going back and forth with these blog sites, why can't I just stay put?!

Cheers to a good year ahead! :)

// I see how images are all the way at the bottom and I can't seem to move them to any other part of the post. Minor problem there for a free app.i can easily edit that when I get on a computer (or so I hope). So far so good for this app, but I hope they get the whole thing with the image a fix. :) Might drop them a line to find a fix. :D Or am I going about this app the wrong way? But I doubt that, I would like to believe I am "techy-er" than your average Jane Doe. ;)