MAC for Student

So I have been thinking about getting myself a MAC on my birthday, which is the 16th of next month.  But I guess my birthday gift came a month early.

I was getting all tired at work again.  Working 10 hours a day for 6 days straight does have its moments that gets to you.  So on the last day before I am free for my one and only day off, I decided to go visit the Apple store when I get off.  The more I sat on the idea, the more I looked forward to it and the lighter my chest felt.

You see, I have also been feeling down since Thursday night.  I took a placement exam at college, and I did quite well actually considering it has been two years since I took exams, studied, and did all those student stuff.  I aced the reading and comprehension.  I did fair on math, which was quite depressing because I honestly expected better from myself.  It also did not help that I was holding in my pee because I did not know if we were allowed restroom breaks.  I later found out at the end of the exam that we were allowed breaks!  I also had a headache prior to taking the exam because I just got off a busy day at work.  The guy told me I can take the essay writing test thing I was qualified for so that I can "challenge" a few of the courses and up my placement in English.  As for the math, he said I can study and retake it if I want to place higher than the placement I got.  I honestly did not get any studying done; did I mention I work 10 hours a day?  So after getting the results, I was ready to register for class, but I see how my parents were not in full support of me taking on studying again.  I understand where they are coming from.  Practically speaking it is better I work and save, but it honestly is not all about money for me.  I guess I am just not practical as dad wants me to be, but I do want to achieve something for myself.

I honestly felt my last graduation was rushed since we had to migrate to the states, and I did have a handful of help from my boyfriend and my friend Marchele in getting that diploma.  Also a great deal of understanding from our dean and my college professors who allowed me to take the course online.  Special case, special consideration.  I was quite a head turner when I flew home for graduation; imagine people not seeing me the whole semester and having me graduate with them.  Anyhow, back to the MAC.  My old laptop was still working but it could not get through the high level security of the WiFi here at our place since it is old.  I also got tired of browsing using my cellphone or ipad, because a laptop or PC is just different.  I also got tired of borrowing from my sister.  I gave her the laptop I recently bought from my first black friday here in the US last 2011.

So worst case scenario is I save up and enroll for winter quarter.  If I find an online course I am interested in, I can sign up for the for the fall quarter.  I wanted to enroll CS115 but the schedule will need adjustment form my work schedule and could cut my hours at work, considering if my employers agree to the adjustment.

After getting the MAC I also felt a bit guilty.  I told myself I would not want to spend on anything big until my boyfriend gets here.  But it is just hard for me without a laptop. Just because I am a netizen (haha!).

So basically my last two weeks in bullet form:

• work 
• thought about accepting a position as a cook for free training
• did not push through the cook plan
• applied to two colleges
• got accepted to both colleges
• took placement test for the college I want to go to
• registered for a class
• unregistered for a class
• got a MBPR
• went to Snoqualmie Falls with Family (today)  

Also, it is a good thing I got the MAC yesterday because until September 6 they have this back to school promo.  Students get like $50 or so off the MAC and a gift card for iTunes/ App Store worth $100. :)  Thank you Lord I now have a laptop!

That is basically it.  This is basically a rant of my frustration in getting back to student life and my getting a new laptop haha.

Oh well, my blog my rant. 

Over and out,

Allie

PS:  I am praying for the family of my good, good friend Choods.  Wish I were there for you my friend. 

Bad Day, Good Day

Last night wasn't too good for me so I woke up not feeling it for work. I stretched my time to the latest I could. I was running late as it is and then my car doesn't start! I called dad and he came down from the house to check it out, he went back up to get me change for the bus!

It was my first time riding the bus alone; first time riding it to work too. I text messaged my supervisor about the predicament I was in, and as expected, she was very understanding about it. Riding the bus to work was a fun enough thing doing alone. The bus driver was nice too. 

I got to work and boss just got back from Cali and brought us donuts to work. Everyone at work was very considerate about the car trouble I was having. 

Breakfast at work and time went by quickly. Lunch was late, I took it at 3:32pm. It was a pretty easy day. Thank you Jesus. Just when I thought it was a bad day, the day proved me wrong. 

Sister picked me up and we went to pick up dad as well. We came home to a yummy home cooked meal by our beloved mother. 

I also already excused myself from working late at my other job and told my boss I just might be too tired to perform the job well. Her reply was good, thanking me for my honesty. Also, my other boss called me over dinner, said she would be bringing me food tomorrow. :) 

Now it's just me, music, and my current read: Walking Disaster by Jamie McGuire. I sooo loved the first book, Beautiful Disaster, that I immediately grabbed the second book after finishing the first one. Good thing the book hold came in just in time. :) 

Well, off to reading again before I sleep. 

Good night.

Allie.

I am tired of hearing the same and old played conversation over and over again. For years I have been drowning it out but now it is harder. I am not only fighting the loud banters but the loneliness and dettachment that comes with moving to a different country. 

How can you be so selfish as to keep on going about how you feel and what you want? Notice those who are silent as they can be likened to a quite volcano, heating up and at any moment might just erupt. I am very, very close to my boiling point. I just needed to spill it out a bit over here.

I am tired of the same old shit you guys do. If you are tired of something or not happy about something then do your very best to change it and make it better! Focus on the good things and appreciate each other instead of magnifying the bad and repeating the wrong that was done! I am crazy tired of this shit so much so that it has me cussing when I normally do not go on typing or saying out loud profanities. Life here is hard enough, I do not need your fucking attitudes weighing me down even more. I feel like Iam drowning already as it is, and you go on about how things are like this and like that, well you were the ones who decided to move here right?! Even if you say it is for our future, well suck it up and face it like the grown ups you are supposed to be! I am such in a fucking dipshit mood I cannot even!!!

Shit. Fuck. 

Contentment, Where Are You?

Before, I always thought being content isn't as good as people make it sound like. Contented people stay where they are, they lack ambition, they are stuck and do not make something better out of their lives (generally speaking). 

When I landed my first job in Seattle, at Taco Bell, I refused to be contented. I cannot do Taco Bell my whole life. It was frustrating to think I went to school for so long and only to land a job at Taco Bell. Maybe it hit my ego or whatever (I definitely am sure it hit my pride) but I really wanted out of there. I went home and looked for a job and found one. I stayed longer than intended. Soon enough I left to fly back here at Washington again. The job I landed there did not do me good either. Yes, I was not contented.

I got back here and landed a job at a testing center. Working there, makes me feel like "please, kill me now". I cannot wait to quit, but I can't just yet because they are already short of people as it is. I am totally unhappy there that I only gave them my Saturdays and my Fridays I took and gave to Taco Bell, the job I left about a year ago because I refused to be stuck there. This time is different though. I work there not because I have to, thankfully I have a full time concierge job that I do not hate to answer my financial needs. Working back at Taco Bell is more for a past time now, and social life I guess? I did gain friends during my time there. 

Second Friday back at Taco Bell was stressful because of the inspection and the presence of the big boss, but other than that, time flew and before I knew it I am home relaxing. I dread the long and slow day at the testing center tomorrow. Sure they pay more, but I am blessed that now I do not have the need for it anymore. 

I have strayed quite far from the topic at hand: contentment. Lol. I tend to do that a lot, get sidetracked. Anyhow, I think it is sad that I do not find contentment in any of the three jobs I have now. I am thankful though that I do not hate my full time job and I can quit the job I hate at anytime. But this being not content also tells me that I am ambitious, I know I can do more. I guess that is a good thing? I just pray the Lord will grant my perseverance and strength to follow through my being ambitious. 

Tired Feet, Aching Back, and Sleepy Eyes, 

Allie